"Deep within us is a restless desire to know the One who made us. We want to discover the purpose He has for our existence in His vast universe. We long to find peace in a world that is being torn apart by feuding families, warring nations, militant religious groups, economic uncertainty, and self-destructive addictions.
At times we may try to suppress that longing. We may try to fill the emptiness with a busy life, community service, career pursuits, romantic relationships, or by trying to cover up the ache with drugs or alcohol. Even though we may try to suppress or deny that longing within us, it will surface again and again. "
Having not done my bible readings in a while and feeling the lack of inner peace lately, I took out the dust covered Daily Bread - Food for the Soul and found the above paras as a prelude..
Emptiness is not something that can be overcome just by ensuring that every second your days are packed with activities.. I know because I tried and at the end of it all, I only feel burnt-out, what more at a much faster pace..
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
Wednesday, September 05, 2007
爱真的需要勇气
最近总是感觉很疲惫。。不仅仅是睡眠不足， 而是觉得人生很空虚。 无论我如何在工作之余参与许许多多的活动与课程，那都只不过是用于充当时间，不让我拥有太多多余的时间来胡思乱想、来感觉寂寞与孤单。
太累太累了。。就快支撑不住了。。只想他真能成为那能为我挡风遮雨的避风港，但。。他却似乎离我越来越遥远了。。我无法理解所发生的一切一切。。他也并没有要向我解释任何东西的意念。。到头来还是只能怪自己当初不够果断, 犹豫不决，错过了那独有的机会。。
我曾说过若时间能倒转，我也不会改变当初所做出的抉择。。但现在的我真的真的很希望时间能回到当出那时刻。。不是因为我累了，而是因为我领悟了。。
太累太累了。。就快支撑不住了。。只想他真能成为那能为我挡风遮雨的避风港，但。。他却似乎离我越来越遥远了。。我无法理解所发生的一切一切。。他也并没有要向我解释任何东西的意念。。到头来还是只能怪自己当初不够果断, 犹豫不决，错过了那独有的机会。。
我曾说过若时间能倒转，我也不会改变当初所做出的抉择。。但现在的我真的真的很希望时间能回到当出那时刻。。不是因为我累了，而是因为我领悟了。。
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
雪糕
I'm still really puzzled why he calls himself 雪糕? He likes ice-cream? His workshop is sooo fun!! Felt like a super good work out after the 1.5 hrs.. his style is very diff as well.. its good to learn under diff teachers.. get a diff kind of feel.. but i still feel like a piece of wood.. must really try to get the feeeeelllllll...
Saturday, August 18, 2007
Camp Hutan - Precamp
The usual whining and complaining before the camp occurred bcos I'll be 'burning' my weekend for the camp. Just felt like the time can be betta spent catching up on sleep and hanging out with frens. But I was the one who volunteered to help although there had been no mention of a pre-camp when I agreed.
I was dead tired since it had been a really long week at work. Nonetheless, its pretty refreshing to attend a camp after so many years. Kinda lost count how long I've not been to camp actually. 4/5 yrs perhaps? Even went Bukit Timah Hill and made that 15mins climb up that steep slope with them. My first time there actually. LoL.
Felt young once again when amongst the JC/Uni students. How interesting when I was asked which JC/Uni I am in? I'll just laugh and reply that I've graduated for a couple of yrs already and be amused by the shocked looks on their faces. Its been 7 yrs since I left JC. There're some new JCs and VJ has even changed its PE tee! Its no longer that half yellow top that the fashion police had been so upset over. Heh. The current one looks so much betta!
2 more weeks to the actual camp. But I don't fancy stayin over in TNS with the rest. Ain't familiar with this batch of Rovers while my batch, we're non-existent already. Perhaps during the camp, I'll head home at nite... ...
I was dead tired since it had been a really long week at work. Nonetheless, its pretty refreshing to attend a camp after so many years. Kinda lost count how long I've not been to camp actually. 4/5 yrs perhaps? Even went Bukit Timah Hill and made that 15mins climb up that steep slope with them. My first time there actually. LoL.
Felt young once again when amongst the JC/Uni students. How interesting when I was asked which JC/Uni I am in? I'll just laugh and reply that I've graduated for a couple of yrs already and be amused by the shocked looks on their faces. Its been 7 yrs since I left JC. There're some new JCs and VJ has even changed its PE tee! Its no longer that half yellow top that the fashion police had been so upset over. Heh. The current one looks so much betta!
2 more weeks to the actual camp. But I don't fancy stayin over in TNS with the rest. Ain't familiar with this batch of Rovers while my batch, we're non-existent already. Perhaps during the camp, I'll head home at nite... ...
Friday, August 17, 2007
Jigsaw
Its one of those times when all the pieces of the puzzle just fall into place nicely on their own, making u a happy happy person at the end of the day =)
Managed to catch the fireworks despite being late as it started later than the stipulated time. Not really sure what it is about fireworks that captivates me. Perhaps its the colors that brighten up the nite sky making it look all dazzling? Fireworks nowadays ain't the typical standard ones anymore. There was something Earth-looking, heart-shaped fireworks etc. An impromptu decision to catch the fireworks, no camera and hence no pics. Then it was off to a really late dinner. It was ard qtr past 10 by the time I got there and I wasn't hungry anymore. For me, hunger pangs usually disappear after a while. Good way to remain slim. Heh. Dinner with Roofus was actually impromptu as well. Although short, it rounded up the nite beautifully ^^
Managed to catch the fireworks despite being late as it started later than the stipulated time. Not really sure what it is about fireworks that captivates me. Perhaps its the colors that brighten up the nite sky making it look all dazzling? Fireworks nowadays ain't the typical standard ones anymore. There was something Earth-looking, heart-shaped fireworks etc. An impromptu decision to catch the fireworks, no camera and hence no pics. Then it was off to a really late dinner. It was ard qtr past 10 by the time I got there and I wasn't hungry anymore. For me, hunger pangs usually disappear after a while. Good way to remain slim. Heh. Dinner with Roofus was actually impromptu as well. Although short, it rounded up the nite beautifully ^^
Sunday, August 05, 2007
Time grew wings
Its been 2 weeks since I came back from my biz trip.. I was so tired before the trip cos of all the prep work to be done.. but it just got worse after I'm back.. both in terms of work and non-work stuff.. I've hardly had time to sleep in, not even on weekends.. But I've been really happy the last 2 weeks.. if only those things which I had silently hoped for had happened as well..
LAST WEEK
went wala with sm on thurs.. the band's great! but both of us still had to work to finish, we left pretty early.. but nonetheless, i was glad for the evening out and the drinks.. that allowed me to sleep betta that nite, and perhaps gave me the courage to said what i did the next day.. so ya.. i finally spoke to my boss.. fingers crossed, hoping for the best!
after my usual family dinner on fri, my sis-in-law had a craving for ice-cream! So, off we went to Haagen Daz.. it was so random.. but i enjoyed it.. my 2 bros, sis-in-law and myself.. having a nice chat over ice-cream.. i really appreciate the time we spent together, and the efforts that each of us put in to keep the family bonds strong.. that we can get along so well with my sis-in-law.. its a very warm fuzzy feeling..
on sat, finally went for KTV with colleagues.. if given a choice, i would've postponed this to go for MLB's autograph session instead.. haven been to any of their events.. =\ ex-team lead's house warming followed.. aka.. gathering for ex-OCBC team.. despite the far-flung place where he stays, I made it a point to attend.. jus cos I like the company.. besides this team, i don't recall there being another team with whom I've enjoyed working with as much.. occasionally, we'll still have get-togethers..
THIS WEEK
Kt's back this week.. our mega retro fanatic.. which explains the first place we headed to with him was Zouk on Wed.. i haven been to zouk in a long while already.. songs ain't as retro.. rather, we're old.. on thurs, we agreed that kt should hear the band Unexpected, so we headed down to Wala.. evidently i was the most tired there cos i was the onli one who went in to work that day!! blah.. so ya, the alcohol imbibed added its great damage on me, wat's more on an empty stomach.. but not having to work the next day, i din really bother.. off to satisfy kt's craving for 'douhua' after.. as far as i remember, its the most interesting cab ride i've ever had.. kt and the cab driver were discussing abt politics in a pretty heated yet humorous way.. kt's still e same, critical as ever.. with very strong personal opinions.. LoL!! IF ONLY I was half like him.. I'm always going along with the flow, never daring to speak up nor voice my opinions.. great to have kt back, albeit for 3 short weeks.. he used to be e one who organizes the sept 6 run outings..
fri nite was spent with the gals chatting away at glutton's bay.. i always believe that u'll see the rainbow at the end of a rainy day.. hang in there!! things will only get betta =)
bladed for a good 3 plus hrs on sat! felt so good.. though i tink the BK dinner made the blading all in vain.. hehehe..
what does the week ahead entails?? praying hard...
LAST WEEK
went wala with sm on thurs.. the band's great! but both of us still had to work to finish, we left pretty early.. but nonetheless, i was glad for the evening out and the drinks.. that allowed me to sleep betta that nite, and perhaps gave me the courage to said what i did the next day.. so ya.. i finally spoke to my boss.. fingers crossed, hoping for the best!
after my usual family dinner on fri, my sis-in-law had a craving for ice-cream! So, off we went to Haagen Daz.. it was so random.. but i enjoyed it.. my 2 bros, sis-in-law and myself.. having a nice chat over ice-cream.. i really appreciate the time we spent together, and the efforts that each of us put in to keep the family bonds strong.. that we can get along so well with my sis-in-law.. its a very warm fuzzy feeling..
on sat, finally went for KTV with colleagues.. if given a choice, i would've postponed this to go for MLB's autograph session instead.. haven been to any of their events.. =\ ex-team lead's house warming followed.. aka.. gathering for ex-OCBC team.. despite the far-flung place where he stays, I made it a point to attend.. jus cos I like the company.. besides this team, i don't recall there being another team with whom I've enjoyed working with as much.. occasionally, we'll still have get-togethers..
THIS WEEK
Kt's back this week.. our mega retro fanatic.. which explains the first place we headed to with him was Zouk on Wed.. i haven been to zouk in a long while already.. songs ain't as retro.. rather, we're old.. on thurs, we agreed that kt should hear the band Unexpected, so we headed down to Wala.. evidently i was the most tired there cos i was the onli one who went in to work that day!! blah.. so ya, the alcohol imbibed added its great damage on me, wat's more on an empty stomach.. but not having to work the next day, i din really bother.. off to satisfy kt's craving for 'douhua' after.. as far as i remember, its the most interesting cab ride i've ever had.. kt and the cab driver were discussing abt politics in a pretty heated yet humorous way.. kt's still e same, critical as ever.. with very strong personal opinions.. LoL!! IF ONLY I was half like him.. I'm always going along with the flow, never daring to speak up nor voice my opinions.. great to have kt back, albeit for 3 short weeks.. he used to be e one who organizes the sept 6 run outings..
fri nite was spent with the gals chatting away at glutton's bay.. i always believe that u'll see the rainbow at the end of a rainy day.. hang in there!! things will only get betta =)
bladed for a good 3 plus hrs on sat! felt so good.. though i tink the BK dinner made the blading all in vain.. hehehe..
what does the week ahead entails?? praying hard...
Saturday, August 04, 2007
China biz trip - my thots
tiz a lil long overdue.. but have been spending all my available time reading PoTTeR.. well, the happily ever after ending's sweet and everything.. but then again.. it sounds really cheezy.. at least I wasn't wrong that Snape's a good guy after all.. nw that i'm over with the book, I shall blog all that I wanna say for the last 2 weeks!!! LoL =p
Pictures paint a thousand words.. here's a couple from my biz trip to China, my first time there cos I never felt like paying on my own to take a holiday in China.. jus doesn't entice me enough.. was a nice flight into Shanghai.. first time flying biz class as well.. so was a little like a mountain turtle.. heheh
but the air pollution in Shanghai shocked me.. the sky was all smog-filled... wat happened to the clear blue skies?? traffic condition's really terrible as well.. and it was sweltering HOT!!! It was a good 3 hours car ride as we went through Shanghai with a stopover in Kunshan before reaching Suzhou. The SIP seems like a complete replicate of Singapore. Its clean, roads are nicely laid out, plants pruned to perfection etc.. Felt good.. Was already evening by the time we got there, so boss brought me ard to see their Orchard Road equivalent... This is it!
Guan qian jie.. really, there's nothing to shout about... the haphazardness of the shops.. felt like Chinatown..
Next day was filled with site visit and meetings.. by the time we got back to Shanghai, it was evening again.. but I was rewarded with the following:-
The BIG king size comfy bed in Westin Hotel!!! 'Home' for the next 3 days.. after every tiring day, its just so awesome to come back to this comfy room, with the comfy bed for a good nite's rest..
Managed to squeeze in a little sightseeing in Shanghai.. that's the all-famous Oriental Pearl Tower located at Pudong.. Where I stood to take the pic is the Bund.. It was sooooo crowded, I felt overwhelmed and just wanted to scream out, "I need breathing space!!" LoL =)
This is Nanjing Xi Lu Bu Xing Jie.. A shopping stretch.. Only pedestrians.. no vehicles allowed! Jus look at the crowd and its a weekday nite..
After 3 days in Shanghai, went off to Shenzhen for a site visit.. boring boring place.. but with loads of Hong Kong ppl... cantonese is the more common language compared to chinese...
The trip was certainly an eye opener for me.. else I would never have set foot in China.. not the best time to be in China given that its summer and its really hot.. worse than SG..
China's certainly growing and very rapidly.. so its certainly a good place to be in to be in the thick of all the action.. but really, to have to live in China, I don't think I can do it... the whole environment... just not some place I feel comfortable in.. unless, u can behave like 1 of them, else, u'll forever be the last.. yea.. it did cross my mind, and I did consider moving to Shanghai.. but its going to take a lot for me to make this move..
Pictures paint a thousand words.. here's a couple from my biz trip to China, my first time there cos I never felt like paying on my own to take a holiday in China.. jus doesn't entice me enough.. was a nice flight into Shanghai.. first time flying biz class as well.. so was a little like a mountain turtle.. heheh
but the air pollution in Shanghai shocked me.. the sky was all smog-filled... wat happened to the clear blue skies?? traffic condition's really terrible as well.. and it was sweltering HOT!!! It was a good 3 hours car ride as we went through Shanghai with a stopover in Kunshan before reaching Suzhou. The SIP seems like a complete replicate of Singapore. Its clean, roads are nicely laid out, plants pruned to perfection etc.. Felt good.. Was already evening by the time we got there, so boss brought me ard to see their Orchard Road equivalent... This is it!
Guan qian jie.. really, there's nothing to shout about... the haphazardness of the shops.. felt like Chinatown..Next day was filled with site visit and meetings.. by the time we got back to Shanghai, it was evening again.. but I was rewarded with the following:-
The BIG king size comfy bed in Westin Hotel!!! 'Home' for the next 3 days.. after every tiring day, its just so awesome to come back to this comfy room, with the comfy bed for a good nite's rest..
Managed to squeeze in a little sightseeing in Shanghai.. that's the all-famous Oriental Pearl Tower located at Pudong.. Where I stood to take the pic is the Bund.. It was sooooo crowded, I felt overwhelmed and just wanted to scream out, "I need breathing space!!" LoL =)
This is Nanjing Xi Lu Bu Xing Jie.. A shopping stretch.. Only pedestrians.. no vehicles allowed! Jus look at the crowd and its a weekday nite.. After 3 days in Shanghai, went off to Shenzhen for a site visit.. boring boring place.. but with loads of Hong Kong ppl... cantonese is the more common language compared to chinese...
The trip was certainly an eye opener for me.. else I would never have set foot in China.. not the best time to be in China given that its summer and its really hot.. worse than SG..
China's certainly growing and very rapidly.. so its certainly a good place to be in to be in the thick of all the action.. but really, to have to live in China, I don't think I can do it... the whole environment... just not some place I feel comfortable in.. unless, u can behave like 1 of them, else, u'll forever be the last.. yea.. it did cross my mind, and I did consider moving to Shanghai.. but its going to take a lot for me to make this move..
Monday, July 23, 2007
Mr. Perfect
This guy is simply gorgeous! Both his smile and his bod! He's none other than Daniel Henny, an American South-Korean actor.
I caught the show 'Seducing Mr. Perfect' on my flight back yesterday. Daniel Henny starred as Robin Heiden, a very capable and driven guy at work. To him, love is nothing but a game, a manipulation of feelings. But this was more due to his failed first love, which took a bullet for him to get over the gal..
These kind of guys just so appeals to me!! tall, dark, handsome, well-built, driven, brainy, confident, speaks well, not a playboy, devoted and committed when in a relationship etc.. the list goes on.. those who have watched the show will have a betta idea what I'm talking about.
Does such a perfect guy exist in real life? *dreamz*
I caught the show 'Seducing Mr. Perfect' on my flight back yesterday. Daniel Henny starred as Robin Heiden, a very capable and driven guy at work. To him, love is nothing but a game, a manipulation of feelings. But this was more due to his failed first love, which took a bullet for him to get over the gal..
These kind of guys just so appeals to me!! tall, dark, handsome, well-built, driven, brainy, confident, speaks well, not a playboy, devoted and committed when in a relationship etc.. the list goes on.. those who have watched the show will have a betta idea what I'm talking about.
Does such a perfect guy exist in real life? *dreamz*
Sunday, July 22, 2007
Sunday, July 15, 2007
The Good Samaritan
There's been a lot going on that I would like to blog about but just can't find the time to.. In actual fact, I really ought to work doubly hard right now instead of taking time out to blog.. but all the CHINESE is driving me nutz.. need a break! Me and my pow-DER-ful chinese..
When I was first told that I'm travelling to China for work, I really didn't expect the workload to be as bad as what I'm experiencing.. But truth be told, things would have been completed at perhaps a fraction of the time if everything were to be done in English instead.. I'm already fortunate enough that there's someone who's translating everything (well, almost) for me.. what I then have to do is ensure that the ideas in the presentation flow and of course make the necessary changes to the texts to ensure that.. Why can't China use English as their main language?? Its been a way torturous week... all thanks to CHINESE..
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Friday nite, on my way to meet up with some frens, I thought the guy I walked past was calling me (I had my earphones plugged in).. so I turned round to take a 2nd look at that guy.. din ring any bell.. so I moved on.. but I really think that guy's calling me!! Removed my earphones turned back and *viola*! That's my jc classmate whom I haven met in ages!! *oops* I really din recognise him at the first instance.. Supposed was the change in his hairstyle that made him look, erm.. different...
I don't know what to say.. but all the gals are carrying branded stuff right now.. they own not just one but a couple... they're certainly being paid well... guys instead of branded stuff, pamper themselves by getting more gadgets... Sometimes, I do miss that job that pays soooooo well that you won't find another one like it elsewhere... But have to constantly remind myself that 'MONEY IS NOT EVERYTHING'.. but it does mean alot still... *sighz* the heart ACHES at the thought of that...
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Well, that's a lot of digression... back to the main topic of this entru - The Good Samaritan.. this should be something really familiar to Christians out there... but to those who're not.. tis is a story about how a person extended his help to someone he met along his journey who was totally unrelated to him...
reflecting on that.. it got me thinking not about the many times in which i had the thought of helping, but something jus holds me back from extending that help... rather it reminded me that this world doesn't just revolve around any single individual... its made up of a community.. I shouldn't be too absorbed into my own life that I forget about the existent of other people around me... I ought not to be so self-centred... I ought to put the interests of others before self.. but somehow, I was the only one who thought of this... so I wonder... I must have always been this self-centred freak who ignores the existence and pleas of everyone else around me... i must be one really selfish pig.. REFLECT REFLECT!!!
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The hacking cough's much betta already, though the throat's still irritated... can feel that the block nose is still causing all the trouble.. albeit its much betta... doc says its because of all the late nites I keep that lead to me being very heaty etc.. he terms the cough "劳嗑" (cough arising from being overworked) I ought to rest more.. but the schedules don't allow me to...
strangely, I'm always under the impression that my schedules were more punishing in the past then now.. but I never had this problem.. or issit a culminated effect?? can't deny that I'm getting older anymore can I??
Let's hope things are a whole load betta by the time I return!
When I was first told that I'm travelling to China for work, I really didn't expect the workload to be as bad as what I'm experiencing.. But truth be told, things would have been completed at perhaps a fraction of the time if everything were to be done in English instead.. I'm already fortunate enough that there's someone who's translating everything (well, almost) for me.. what I then have to do is ensure that the ideas in the presentation flow and of course make the necessary changes to the texts to ensure that.. Why can't China use English as their main language?? Its been a way torturous week... all thanks to CHINESE..
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Friday nite, on my way to meet up with some frens, I thought the guy I walked past was calling me (I had my earphones plugged in).. so I turned round to take a 2nd look at that guy.. din ring any bell.. so I moved on.. but I really think that guy's calling me!! Removed my earphones turned back and *viola*! That's my jc classmate whom I haven met in ages!! *oops* I really din recognise him at the first instance.. Supposed was the change in his hairstyle that made him look, erm.. different...
I don't know what to say.. but all the gals are carrying branded stuff right now.. they own not just one but a couple... they're certainly being paid well... guys instead of branded stuff, pamper themselves by getting more gadgets... Sometimes, I do miss that job that pays soooooo well that you won't find another one like it elsewhere... But have to constantly remind myself that 'MONEY IS NOT EVERYTHING'.. but it does mean alot still... *sighz* the heart ACHES at the thought of that...
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Well, that's a lot of digression... back to the main topic of this entru - The Good Samaritan.. this should be something really familiar to Christians out there... but to those who're not.. tis is a story about how a person extended his help to someone he met along his journey who was totally unrelated to him...
reflecting on that.. it got me thinking not about the many times in which i had the thought of helping, but something jus holds me back from extending that help... rather it reminded me that this world doesn't just revolve around any single individual... its made up of a community.. I shouldn't be too absorbed into my own life that I forget about the existent of other people around me... I ought not to be so self-centred... I ought to put the interests of others before self.. but somehow, I was the only one who thought of this... so I wonder... I must have always been this self-centred freak who ignores the existence and pleas of everyone else around me... i must be one really selfish pig.. REFLECT REFLECT!!!
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The hacking cough's much betta already, though the throat's still irritated... can feel that the block nose is still causing all the trouble.. albeit its much betta... doc says its because of all the late nites I keep that lead to me being very heaty etc.. he terms the cough "劳嗑" (cough arising from being overworked) I ought to rest more.. but the schedules don't allow me to...
strangely, I'm always under the impression that my schedules were more punishing in the past then now.. but I never had this problem.. or issit a culminated effect?? can't deny that I'm getting older anymore can I??
Let's hope things are a whole load betta by the time I return!
Sunday, July 08, 2007
A week
A week breezed through so quickly. PS came and left... managed to catch up with her on a couple of occasions despite her short yet fully packed schedule...
Her visa fiasco wasn't a great way to start her holiday but fortunately things turned out well... She gladly indulged in her favorite foods, taking up to 5 meals a day... Her last nite of holiday back home, couple of the rovers stayed over at her place... as with usual tradition, we spent the nite playing pictionary followed with silly charades... caught some sleep before her mum came into the room, turned on the lights and woke us all up at abt 4am...
It was a 4-car convoy that sent her off to the airport... a huge entourage... lol
With her having been back twice in a year, it won't be anytime soon that she'll be back...
PS, take care and have loads of fun!
Her visa fiasco wasn't a great way to start her holiday but fortunately things turned out well... She gladly indulged in her favorite foods, taking up to 5 meals a day... Her last nite of holiday back home, couple of the rovers stayed over at her place... as with usual tradition, we spent the nite playing pictionary followed with silly charades... caught some sleep before her mum came into the room, turned on the lights and woke us all up at abt 4am...
It was a 4-car convoy that sent her off to the airport... a huge entourage... lol
With her having been back twice in a year, it won't be anytime soon that she'll be back...
PS, take care and have loads of fun!
Thursday, July 05, 2007
Saturday, June 30, 2007
時をかける少女 - The Girl Who Leapt Thru Time
Saw this posted on Aki's blog and my inherent love for anime meant I watched it immediately when I had the time to... Its a simple show, but with strong meaning to it...
I always thought about how great it would be if I could turn back time and re-do those things that din turn out the way I wanted them to... I'm sure I ain't the only one guilty of this thought... when something goes wrong, everybody will think, "If I could turn back time, I would have...."
But after watching this show, its not as if turning back the clock is the best way to make right something that was wrong... sometimes, turning back time only made things worse... also, should you be happy after making things right, more often than not, someone else will suffer in your place... just like the Chinese saying goes, "把自己的快乐建立在别人的痛苦上”. That's just kinda mean.. several times, when Makoto travelled back in time to correct something, another disastrous incident will occur such that she has to travel back more than once before she manages to put everything in order..
Not exactly sure what the ending means.. At first I thought it was simply that Makoto has Chiaki waiting for her in the future, which is sooo sweet... but then again, how far ahead of time had Chiaki came from?? Can Makoto really 'run' there??
Read elsewhere about the novel from which this anime had been adapted.. If there's an English version available...
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Some sad shocking news...
My cousin just told me that one of the singers from Soul (finalist of the Superband competition) had passed on yesterday! SHOCKED!! He's a great dancer and also a dance instructor... News said that he was found dead in his car but the cause of death is still unknown. There're certainly speculations going round, but no point speculating... A life's lost, a young one (he's ard 25, 26) and that's a fact...
If it was "a moment of folly" that led to the end of his life, its really a pity.. I don't reckon there's anything in this world that cannot be resolved... a moment of folly that leaves u with no room for regret and the opportunity to make things right again... Life's just too fragile...
I might not know him personally, but yet I feel the loss.. perhaps cos he's a fren's fren... I suppose its also cos I'd been following the Superband competition throughout... watching them for that couple of months, sometimes even at live events... he's always seen on screen to be someone who's very happy-go-lucky, fun-loving etc.. but wat's going on behind that farce... *shrugs*...
If he could travel back in time, I besiege him to turn to his family and frens or whoever he's comfortable with to share his troubles... nothing is worth more than ur life!!
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Cried while watching the show... tearing as I typed this entry... gonna get puffy eyes tomorrow...
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
What do you think?
Here's my intended schedule...
1. GMAT by 2007 end
2. CFA level 2 in June 2008
3. JLPT level 3 in Dec 2008
4. CFA level 3 in June 2009
5. MBA starting Fall 2009
That's 1 major exam to contend with every half a year... Do I have the discipline and aptitude for them all? Hmmz... I doubt myself...
I perhaps have to shelf ALL travel plans until after June 2009... for those who know me, they'll say that its almost next to impossible to stop me from travelling... I know that very well too...
Overly ambitious plan... but I really wish that I can achieve these milestones...
1. GMAT by 2007 end
2. CFA level 2 in June 2008
3. JLPT level 3 in Dec 2008
4. CFA level 3 in June 2009
5. MBA starting Fall 2009
That's 1 major exam to contend with every half a year... Do I have the discipline and aptitude for them all? Hmmz... I doubt myself...
I perhaps have to shelf ALL travel plans until after June 2009... for those who know me, they'll say that its almost next to impossible to stop me from travelling... I know that very well too...
Overly ambitious plan... but I really wish that I can achieve these milestones...
Sunday, June 24, 2007
The Weekend
Paw kindly invited us to her chalet on fri nite. As usual, had gone home for dinner first. I was so darn tired (been working till wee hours the past couple of days) and almost fell asleep... but reluctantly dragged myself out of bed to join them... its a grp i like hanging out with... we no longer hang out as much as we used to... and the nos at each gathering is dwindling..
They played a card game which paw's hall mates had came up with... really hilarious to watch them.. Didn't join in cos I had head that was pounding so badly, I could barely lift it off the pillow... XiaoHuang (aka SL) and her hubby DaQing (aka Dan) is such a great couple. I've never seen another couple who can stand the other party's scolding as much them. What's more hilarious is how the 2 of them end up sabotaging each other... in the end, both of them were so high that the 'scoldings' escalated. The rest of us were kinda of like watching a free comedy... the only thing lacking was the popcorn... *LoL* They were all either staying over/staying late. I couldn't stay on bcos I really need to reward my sleep deprived body of some good rest.
大哥 was as wonderful as ever and offered to pick me should there be no one to send me home. That was like almost 2 in the morn. Instead of sleeping when he can, he stayed up and waited for me to be ready to go home. So touched! Really blessed to have such a doting big brother! My 大哥's really good at taking care of others. Lucky sis-in-law and their kidz!! Must have taken after my dad who also always gladly picks me up whenever and wherever. Whatever happened to my 二哥 and myself then? OopS!! must have been too pampered... keke
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RCIA as usual on sun... I've always been envious of people who can play the piano sooo well because I just don't have the flair for it... the guy who played the hymns last week... OMG! completely mesmerized by the music! I'm also full of admiration for one of the sponsors' for his prayers are always so soothing... really heartfelt prayers... when will I be able to be like them? be able to play music (not just making noise with my organ) and to make heartfelt prayers...
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Due to my lack of sleep... my throat's starting to hurt once more... I betta give my body the requisite rest and vitamins... would hate another dose of medicine anytime soon...
They played a card game which paw's hall mates had came up with... really hilarious to watch them.. Didn't join in cos I had head that was pounding so badly, I could barely lift it off the pillow... XiaoHuang (aka SL) and her hubby DaQing (aka Dan) is such a great couple. I've never seen another couple who can stand the other party's scolding as much them. What's more hilarious is how the 2 of them end up sabotaging each other... in the end, both of them were so high that the 'scoldings' escalated. The rest of us were kinda of like watching a free comedy... the only thing lacking was the popcorn... *LoL* They were all either staying over/staying late. I couldn't stay on bcos I really need to reward my sleep deprived body of some good rest.
大哥 was as wonderful as ever and offered to pick me should there be no one to send me home. That was like almost 2 in the morn. Instead of sleeping when he can, he stayed up and waited for me to be ready to go home. So touched! Really blessed to have such a doting big brother! My 大哥's really good at taking care of others. Lucky sis-in-law and their kidz!! Must have taken after my dad who also always gladly picks me up whenever and wherever. Whatever happened to my 二哥 and myself then? OopS!! must have been too pampered... keke
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RCIA as usual on sun... I've always been envious of people who can play the piano sooo well because I just don't have the flair for it... the guy who played the hymns last week... OMG! completely mesmerized by the music! I'm also full of admiration for one of the sponsors' for his prayers are always so soothing... really heartfelt prayers... when will I be able to be like them? be able to play music (not just making noise with my organ) and to make heartfelt prayers...
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Due to my lack of sleep... my throat's starting to hurt once more... I betta give my body the requisite rest and vitamins... would hate another dose of medicine anytime soon...
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
Life's a learning process
What is it that I am searching for in life? I don't seem satisfied nor contented with what I have. I know that I am searching, but what is it that I'm searching for, I am completely clueless. Things are acceptable now, but there's always the hope that things will be good, not only acceptable.. But I also know that everything is relative. How do you know something is better if you don't make any comparisons?
There're so many things I wished I had done in the past, just so that things are a little different now. But there's no way time can be turned back and what I ought to do is to be forward looking, figure out how I can move on instead. Of course, things are always easier said than done. Perhaps I should have put in more effort in school, perhaps I should have majored in something else, perhaps, perhaps, perhaps.. I won't use the word regret because life is a tad too short for regrets... I would rather do what I can to make things right again. Life is meant to be a learning process at the end of the day.
Its too early in life to say that I'm tired of this learning process but it is true that I'm really tired. Tired because I don't understand what I'm learning, I don't know where I'm headed to... Its akin to being lost out in the oceans, where after days, weeks.. there's still no signs of shore... I'm struggling to keep my head above the waters.. There's no knowing when I'll be exhausted from all the struggling and just allow myself to be sucked into the depths of the oceans... ...
There're so many things I wished I had done in the past, just so that things are a little different now. But there's no way time can be turned back and what I ought to do is to be forward looking, figure out how I can move on instead. Of course, things are always easier said than done. Perhaps I should have put in more effort in school, perhaps I should have majored in something else, perhaps, perhaps, perhaps.. I won't use the word regret because life is a tad too short for regrets... I would rather do what I can to make things right again. Life is meant to be a learning process at the end of the day.
Its too early in life to say that I'm tired of this learning process but it is true that I'm really tired. Tired because I don't understand what I'm learning, I don't know where I'm headed to... Its akin to being lost out in the oceans, where after days, weeks.. there's still no signs of shore... I'm struggling to keep my head above the waters.. There's no knowing when I'll be exhausted from all the struggling and just allow myself to be sucked into the depths of the oceans... ...
Sunday, June 10, 2007
Ought to rest more
After two weeks, two courses of medicine, I've yet to recover. Getting better, but my throat still hurts and I've got that hacking cough... Probably I ought to see another doctor...
Despite being sick, I still held a bbq on Friday.. The bbq was planned a month ago and really din wan to cancel it... My family had booked the chalet for the weekend for my nephew's 2nd bdae celebrations on Sat.. since the place was available on Fri, thought I'll just gather some close friends to catch up =) but its such a torture, looking at the food, yet not being able to savor them... Well, of course my self-control wasn't all that great.. LoL! Had wanted to stay the night at the beach to look at the stars and hopefully catch the sunrise the next morn but was too tired to do that. I miss the time in Shizuoka, Japan and Fitzroy Island, Cairns Australia where stars were plentiful and shone so brightly...
Long journey to Bukit Batok on Sat morn to attend Tim and Sharon's solemnization at St Mary of the Angels. A really big, grand and modern Catholic Church. Really happy for them. ^^
In the evening, went to the chalet for my nephew's bdae. He was soooo elated when he saw his bdae cake. He struggled to break free from his mom to get closer to the cake.. Either he really like those monsters - Barney and friends, or he just love cakes. Earlier, he refused to eat dinner but he had 3 servings of cake. LoL.
After 2 looongg days, I finally had time to rest on Sunday. But it ain't enough. Still feel really lethargic and tired. Not sure if its due to my sickness, or I'm really tired... everyone's telling me I ought to rest more in order to get well.. I know, I know.. but I can't really sleep cos the hacking cough keeps me awake.. how to get well???
Despite being sick, I still held a bbq on Friday.. The bbq was planned a month ago and really din wan to cancel it... My family had booked the chalet for the weekend for my nephew's 2nd bdae celebrations on Sat.. since the place was available on Fri, thought I'll just gather some close friends to catch up =) but its such a torture, looking at the food, yet not being able to savor them... Well, of course my self-control wasn't all that great.. LoL! Had wanted to stay the night at the beach to look at the stars and hopefully catch the sunrise the next morn but was too tired to do that. I miss the time in Shizuoka, Japan and Fitzroy Island, Cairns Australia where stars were plentiful and shone so brightly...
Long journey to Bukit Batok on Sat morn to attend Tim and Sharon's solemnization at St Mary of the Angels. A really big, grand and modern Catholic Church. Really happy for them. ^^
In the evening, went to the chalet for my nephew's bdae. He was soooo elated when he saw his bdae cake. He struggled to break free from his mom to get closer to the cake.. Either he really like those monsters - Barney and friends, or he just love cakes. Earlier, he refused to eat dinner but he had 3 servings of cake. LoL.
After 2 looongg days, I finally had time to rest on Sunday. But it ain't enough. Still feel really lethargic and tired. Not sure if its due to my sickness, or I'm really tired... everyone's telling me I ought to rest more in order to get well.. I know, I know.. but I can't really sleep cos the hacking cough keeps me awake.. how to get well???
Sunday, June 03, 2007
Flying Fish
Whoever knows how to interpret dreams can help me with this one..
Strange and weird dream / nightmare I had.. Will try to recollect as much as I can..
I have got 2 luohan fish in my house that have grown pretty big that's its quite a squeeze for them both to share a tank. Someday, my eldest bro and myself, perhaps too bored or were just sadist, decided to pour $1 coins into the tank. (My bro poured the coins in while I watched from a distance). These 2 fish are very fond of jumping. With the $1 coins poured in, the water level just gets higher, to the point of reaching the bream. Somehow, the fish also got very excited and began swimming around vigorously. When the opportunity came, one of them jumped, and of course, out of the tank! To which I screamed as it headed in my direction!!! I got my brother to catch hold of the fish quick and put it back into the water. I don't want to kill any of my dad's fish. My bro placed the fish into a pail of water and the fish remained very quiet and still. Water from the tank had been spilling over with the fish swimming about so vigorously, so my brother had to refill the tank with more water, but perhaps a little too much. I told him to put the fish that jumped out back into the tank to see if it would 'return to normal'. True enough once he put it back in, the 2 fish got very excited again! (don't know what happened to the $1 coins this time round). From wherever I was watching, I knew for sure that the other fish was going to take the opportunity to jump out as well and screamed to alert my brother that the water level was too high! But before my brother could do anything about the amount of water in the tank, that stupid fish jumped out! Dropped on the ground and did a flip into the air before dropping back on the ground and slided towards me. Of course, I screamed!
What a fishy night I had... Flying fish, and all in my direction!!! EEKSS!!!
Strange and weird dream / nightmare I had.. Will try to recollect as much as I can..
I have got 2 luohan fish in my house that have grown pretty big that's its quite a squeeze for them both to share a tank. Someday, my eldest bro and myself, perhaps too bored or were just sadist, decided to pour $1 coins into the tank. (My bro poured the coins in while I watched from a distance). These 2 fish are very fond of jumping. With the $1 coins poured in, the water level just gets higher, to the point of reaching the bream. Somehow, the fish also got very excited and began swimming around vigorously. When the opportunity came, one of them jumped, and of course, out of the tank! To which I screamed as it headed in my direction!!! I got my brother to catch hold of the fish quick and put it back into the water. I don't want to kill any of my dad's fish. My bro placed the fish into a pail of water and the fish remained very quiet and still. Water from the tank had been spilling over with the fish swimming about so vigorously, so my brother had to refill the tank with more water, but perhaps a little too much. I told him to put the fish that jumped out back into the tank to see if it would 'return to normal'. True enough once he put it back in, the 2 fish got very excited again! (don't know what happened to the $1 coins this time round). From wherever I was watching, I knew for sure that the other fish was going to take the opportunity to jump out as well and screamed to alert my brother that the water level was too high! But before my brother could do anything about the amount of water in the tank, that stupid fish jumped out! Dropped on the ground and did a flip into the air before dropping back on the ground and slided towards me. Of course, I screamed!
What a fishy night I had... Flying fish, and all in my direction!!! EEKSS!!!
Thursday, May 31, 2007
Potent Bug
Think I've caught the omnipotent flu bug.. I do get the occasional sore throat, running nose kind of stuff.. but this time round.. OMG! Haven't fell this sick for as long as I can recall..
On the first nite I fell sick, I couldn't sleep cause my throat hurt so badly. The next morn, after going to the doc, I concussed for the next 22 hrs, waking up only to take my meals and medicine... Went in to work, but called it quits after half a day.. the aircon was freezing cold, my nose was leaking non-stop, I sounded like I was coughing my lungs out.. Betta not spread the germs..
Today's the 3rd day.. onli improvement is that I can now get out of bed.. the medicine simply has no effect on me.. wasted the public holiday staying home.. dun wanna spend the weekend in bed again..
arrghhh.. stupid bug, will you jus stop bugging me!!!!
On the first nite I fell sick, I couldn't sleep cause my throat hurt so badly. The next morn, after going to the doc, I concussed for the next 22 hrs, waking up only to take my meals and medicine... Went in to work, but called it quits after half a day.. the aircon was freezing cold, my nose was leaking non-stop, I sounded like I was coughing my lungs out.. Betta not spread the germs..
Today's the 3rd day.. onli improvement is that I can now get out of bed.. the medicine simply has no effect on me.. wasted the public holiday staying home.. dun wanna spend the weekend in bed again..
arrghhh.. stupid bug, will you jus stop bugging me!!!!
Sunday, May 20, 2007
The order of the Catechumens
Having been attending mass for over a year, today's one was exceptionally different, because of the meaning it held. Today's Rites of Acceptance marks the first of several rites I'll be going through as I journey down this road of Faith.
I felt really blessed and happy to be called and be able to answer God's call. When the sponsors signed the cross for us, I felt that it gave me a whole new meaning to Christian life. Previously, I had attended mass regularly simply for the sake of attending due to my lack of understanding. The months of RCIA thus far have certainly deepened my understanding of the religion. After the signing of the cross, I felt a deepening of relationship with Christ and a compelling need to live the Christian way of life to be a good role model for others. However, each step that I take to be closer to Christ raises the fear in me - the fear of being different from my family (my family's religion is taoism). When I was praising the Lord, tears welled up in my eyes as I wished that my family was there with me. I believe I have long accepted Christ, but to do it in this official manner, it adds a different meaning to it all.
This is but just the beginning of a long and arduous journey. I still don't feel that I have the strength to go through with baptism without my family despite my mum having told me that she's fine with whatever religion I choose for she can't be there with me forever, and ultimately its a choice that I have to make for myself. So long as I'm happy, she won't be against it. But its easier said then done. I truly love my family for their openness and understanding and I sincerely hope that one day, they too will hear God's calling and answer to that call.
I felt really blessed and happy to be called and be able to answer God's call. When the sponsors signed the cross for us, I felt that it gave me a whole new meaning to Christian life. Previously, I had attended mass regularly simply for the sake of attending due to my lack of understanding. The months of RCIA thus far have certainly deepened my understanding of the religion. After the signing of the cross, I felt a deepening of relationship with Christ and a compelling need to live the Christian way of life to be a good role model for others. However, each step that I take to be closer to Christ raises the fear in me - the fear of being different from my family (my family's religion is taoism). When I was praising the Lord, tears welled up in my eyes as I wished that my family was there with me. I believe I have long accepted Christ, but to do it in this official manner, it adds a different meaning to it all.
This is but just the beginning of a long and arduous journey. I still don't feel that I have the strength to go through with baptism without my family despite my mum having told me that she's fine with whatever religion I choose for she can't be there with me forever, and ultimately its a choice that I have to make for myself. So long as I'm happy, she won't be against it. But its easier said then done. I truly love my family for their openness and understanding and I sincerely hope that one day, they too will hear God's calling and answer to that call.
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