The Rhema Word - HOPE

Supposed to go for some trial body massage which was FOC and asked SX along too.. but.. cos I was late, we didn't get to enjoy the body massage.. meh =\ supposedly wanted to shop.. but somehow, we never found the energy to do so..

SX was giving bible studies to one of her members, so I decided to sit-in and listen as well. The topic was on faith being a process... then she went on to talk about HOPE. Well, everyone's supposed to have hope.. and God will answer to these hopes should the person delight in God. But to me, I felt that hope is such a double-edged sword. As the saying goes, 希望越大，失望越大 (translating - the greater your hopes, the greater your disappointment). SX corrected my mindset on this. She said that so long as our hopes are within the scope of plans that God has for us, they will be answered. In a way, I guess.. and she goes on to say that we must always persist in the things we hope for.. never to give up easily.. because one day, God will answer these hopes.. but I thought to myself.. this whole thing seems beyond me.. firstly, I don't know what God has in His plans for me.. if I don't know, how long then do I ought to persist to acheive something before I give up knowing that's not part of the plan? I've persisted before, believing that's what He told me to.. but at the end of the day, I only feel tired without accomplishing what I set out to accomplish.. I give up because I can't take it anymore.. does that mean I have lost faith somehow? then again.. how long is one supposed to persist?

This week's homily.. the only thing that struck me was again, "HOPE". I gotta say that I basically lost hope in alot of things.. and also stopped myself in hoping for anything after all the disappointments I had experienced.. I daren't hope again.. But I seem to be told today that no one / nothing is hopeless... One needs to have hope.. to have something to work hard for.. else, life seems kinda pointless.. supposed I'm at this stage at the moment.. not that I don't value life.. but I have no idea what my existence is for..

Probably He is trying to put the word HOPE back into my dictionary..

Singapore vs China

Currently watching the 2008 Olympics Table Tennis Finals. Singapore's 1st chance at a medal aft a long 48 years.. Actually, I ain't excited with the fact that Singapore's gonna get her 1st medal after sooooo long... no sense of belonging? I shall simply attribute it to my lack of interest in this sport.. Table tennis is a game so dominated by the Chinese, regardless of country.. but I have to say the players are really good.. so fast that I lose sight of that small white ball.. lol

Think I enjoy watching swimming a lot betta! Michael Phelps such a legend! OMG! 8 golds 2008 Olympics!!! Not forgetting the synchronized diving as well, which is dominated by China.. perfect timing in execution... i'm awed!

The 'live' match just ended.. its a Silver for Singapore! I think the team did well, against such a strong opponent..

Break time over.. its back to work =|

一走了之

逃避并不是解决问题的最佳方法。。但除了逃避，我不知还能做些什么。。 好累好累啊！！就让我快些离开这让我喘不过气的地方好吗？在我完全支撑不住之前。。。

Night Cycling

Only bcos of the company.. that's the only reason why I went nite cycling on National Day.. otherwise, nothing could drag me out of the house and sacrifice sleep (something which I'm already so deprived of)..

Compared to what we use to do in the past, last nite's cycling trip was shorter with a group of old and new frens.. we started off from MF's place at AMK and headed north. Stopped at Seletar Reservoir (which to my amazement was buzzing with people in the middle of the nite) for a couple of rounds of bear and hunter.. before continuing on to jalan kayu for prata.. got back to MF's place ard 4am and crashed into bed..

my legs are still protesting.. more the knees than anything else..

so don't feel like going in to work tomorrow...

亞洲舞道館 MV

tis is soooo cool!! It really takes a lot to be a dancer.. determination, perseverance.. check out the MV kie!! my dance teacher is oso featured in it..

Part I
http://v.youku.com/v_show/id_XMzI5MzAzODg=.html

Part II
http://v.youku.com/v_show/id_XMzM2NTkyNDQ=.html

08Q2

Missed the last gathering.. so hadn't seen the team for some time alr.. was a nice, simple evening out..

Its always great catching up with them.. and how time flies.. seems like it was just yesterday when I entered the firm as an A1.. reporting to the then managers, KS and TA. Now, they're already senior managers.. signs that we're all growing old!!! TA's oso back from the States after a 2.5 yr secondment.. asked how's life there.. on a standalone basis - alrite.. compared to life in singapore - its great! wat a contrast.. lol..

for them who had stayed so long with the firm.. contemplating to leave at this juncture doesn't really seem to quite work out in monetary sense.. so i'm still glad i decided to venture out early.. where the pay cut i took was nothing that significant.. but ask me if this route i had taken is wat i want, i can't give you an answer either.. i've been asking myself the same question over and over again.. cos if banking ain't my cup of tea, then i ought to leave soon too.. before being won over by the monetary returns.. i give myself till my next bonus to decide.. cos i've worked so hard (and met my budget).. should stay and collect my dues before moving on..

but its really time to think.. WHAT NEXT?

OUCH

tdy's my 3rd lesson at basic salsa classes.. tis guy whacked his elbow right into my face!!! *OUCH* i've been rubbing it.. also used an ice-pack.. but it still hurts terribly!! fingers crossed I won't end up with a huge bruise on my face.. =|

3rd lesson into salsa.. and i still find it kinda boring..

someone's keen to try out hip hop.. gonna try to convince her to take it up.. then i can go back to learning hip hop!! but it also means i'm gonna start from the basics agn.. sounds like i'm wasting $$ here.. but.. dunno oso.. will see how it goes..