1st biz trip - KL

Was to fly into KL on the 1st flight for a meeting at 9am. A check with a fren from KL, there's no way I can reach the client's office by 9am given that my flt only touch down at 745am bcos of the terrible jam. But supe said he doesn't want to fly in on Sun nite and stay a nite there. I seriously would rather do that. Then I wouldn't have to wake up at the unearthly hour of 430am.

To begin with, I don't even know if I slept. I went to bed at about 1130pm. But I tossed and turned, not used to going to bed so early. Frustrated, I got up at 130am. Tried to relax and go back to sleep, but its really difficult. Didn't help that mum woke me at 4am.

Blurry-eyed, I left for the airport. Since the flight's only an hour, no breakfast was served. The nice colored sky was the only reward in the early morning...



The jam was horrendous, such that we arrived an hour late for the meeting. In fact, by the time we got there, the meeting was drawing to a close already. To which I felt, why in the world did we fly there for? Attended the meeting on an empty stomach... *growl*

After that, we visited the office of an associate and the branch. That dragged on and when I finally got a chance to eat/drink, it was already 1pm. A good 8 hours had passed with me not having touched any food/drink. I don't recall being on a hunger strike?!?!

Spent the rest of the afternoon going to 2 malls. Apparently, supe was supposed to explain why they were flops, but well, key word used was "SUPPOSED"... Hmm... I really don't get the purpose of the trip.. the only thing I appreciated was being out of the office and I had time to do a little shopping.

But this trip did make me realise one thing. I do know what I want to do already and am striving towards that right now. I certainly don't want to remain in my current employment for more than another 6 months..

‘爱’

老鼠对猫说我爱你。猫说你走开。

老鼠流着泪走开，但谁也没看见老鼠走后，猫也留了一滴泪。

其实有总爱叫放弃。

人善变的是脸，男人善变的是心。

在爱情的世界里，没有谁对不起谁，只有谁不懂得珍惜谁。

不要轻易说‘爱’，许下的承诺，就是欠下的债。

要抓紧爱情，而不是伤害彼此的感情。

乌龟与海龟

That's the nick of Aki and myself, given to us back in sec sch days cos of the farni animal noises that we often make during moral ed classes. We'd been classmates for e 4 yrs in DHS and often hanged out together. Being in the same faculty in college allowed us to continue keeping in touch though the frequency dropped greatly. When we went on to uni, we hardly met up anymore. Fortunately, we're those who can pick up from where we left of and that we've got numerous similar interests.

We both like Jap, dance, sing ktv, eat fried food, can go crazy abt chasin idols (but i'm nowhere near aki's level of craziness, heh), watchin dramas like there's no tomorrow... Sometime back, we bumped into each other at the language school, and had time to exchange a few liners each time. I also decided to take up dance, which I had procrastinated for so long.. aki's already been taking lessons for the past 2 years! Loooonggg way for me to catch up.. she's also my supplier of korean dramas... all these gave us the opportunity to re-find the strong friendship that we once shared...

Today, we met each other at a seminar.. we realised the other person's existence at the very same moment! so coincidental!! Lunch was 2 hours long, so we went over to Forum to 'walk, walk'. Nothing much there, except for all the shops catered towards young children. We went into a shop that sells children's books. We especially liked those with stickers where u've got to stick them on the various pages of the book. (we like them even now!) So there you have, 2 adults, but yet behaving like kids, LoL. The moment we stepped out of Forum, we caught a whiff of something very delicious and wondered what that might be? I offered that its fried food, then reckoned that it came from Old Chang Kee. aki quickly added, "its the fried sotong head!!" We then went on and on about how we both love the super unhealthy fried food. LoL. We wanted to get some, but then again, we were so stuffed after the many rounds of buffett we had for lunch. Oops.. felt like such a glutton! =p

We both missed the days when we were young, when life was much more carefree..

I'm really happy today, to know that our friendship is still as strong as before. Despite having lost touch momentarily during the couple of years in uni, we managed to pick things up from there and we still have so much in common, so much to share! =)

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乌龟，一切顺其自然吧。以你的聪明与智慧，你肯定能克服一切困难。不要给自己那么大的压力。 你行的！有朝一日，你会找着你的方向的！两年的时间的确不容易碍。。 你要想清楚后再作决定哦！但无论你的决定是么，我会一直在旁支持你的!

Spooky

Spooky

In the cool of the evening
When everything is getting kind of groovy
You call me up and ask me
Would I like to go with you and see a movie?
First I say no, I've got some plans for tonight
And then I stop and say all right
Love is kind of crazy with a spooky little boy like you

You always keep me guessing
I never seem to know what you are thinking
And if a girl looks at you
Its for sure your little eye will be a-winking
I get confused, I never know where I stand
And then you smile and hold my hand
Love is kind of crazy with a spooky little boy like you
Spooky

If you decide some day to stop this little game that you are a-playing
I'm gonna tell you all the things my hearts been a-dying to be saying
Just like a ghost youve been a-haunting my dreams
But now I know you're not what you seem
Love is kind of crazy with a spooky little boy like you
Spooky

Ahh, ahh, spooky, mmm, spooky, ahh, ahh, ahh, spooky, ooh, spooky
Ahh, aah, aah, spooky

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The spooky little boy sent me this song.. and it really 'spooked' me, cos the song's a lil too apt...

Monday 'Blues'

Monday tiz week was great! time passed so fast without me doin anything much. As usual, spent the morning clearing all the administrative work and in the afternoon, it was off to the law firm for legal documents negotiation. A&G's office offers a splendid view!! We were on the highest level (30th), in the Board Room and sat facing the great expanse out there. I always wished I had a home and office with this kinda view. It allows you to feel relaxed and calm rather than jumpy and irritated.

Meetin began at 230pm. Not long after it started, my supe was feelin bored too (I thought I was the only one who didn't really catch anything, but he wasn't paying attention as well). He started whispering to me, "the view is really great! you can even see the DHL hotair balloon going up and down". I had to try really hard to keep a straight face. I hadn't noticed the balloon. Just goes to show how much attention he was paying at the meeting. As usual, I began drawing and scribbling at the documents, adding so much color to a black and white piece. LoL.

Slowly, the sky became overcast, visibility slowly decreased and it started pouring very heavily. My supe mumbled, "wa" and it so tickled me. He must really be bored to tears, like me. I think the people sitting across from me must be thinking that I am out of my mind, trying so hard to contain my laughter by biting my lower lip.

The meeting went on and on and on.. finally at 730pm, it was adjourned to be continued another day. 5 hours worth, and I ain't sure if I even understood an hour of what had transpired. Lawyers speak so softly. I could hardly hear.

I had thought of going back to the office, but my supe said he wasn't, so I reconsidered and decided to go off as well. Thought there will be a class gathering, but it ended up a separate one. The guys were at KTV while the gals at YF's place. It has been a while since I joined them as I used to have dance classes on Monday evenings. I miss dance, but no class starting as yet. =\ Watched TV and chit-chat. HX had just gotten married the day before and YF (the only one invited from our class) went on and on about how much effort she had put in for her wedding and how great her hubby is. Congrats gal!! I believe her hubby must be really wonderful cos since JC, she has always had a set of uber high criteria. Next up will be Drin. Her weddin is scheduled in Jan 08 and she has certainly began her preparations. She too, I believe will spend a lot of effort on her wedding. Gracie seems like she's starting to prepare as well, looking for a house. Topics revolved around wedding preparations. Got a little bored after a while cos I can't relate to the topic... An earth shattering news was shared right at the end with lots of disclaimers and which left us all thinking hard... ...

要是时间能倒转，你想回到过去的何时呢?

Was reading Aki's blog and this question struck me. Should one day, an angel comes by granting you the opportunity to turn back the clock, when would you turn it back to? Or to begin with, would you want to turn back the clock?

I wanna be greedy and request for the clock to be turned back to various times such that I can choose again, and of course, pick the opposite of what I have chosen, so that the outcome will be different from what it is now. Sounds like I'm unhappy with things right now? Not unhappy, but just felt that things might have been better if I had elected otherwise at various points of my life.

Looking back, I wonder why I made those decisions back then. One day I will know the reasons, but right now, I can't comprehend my own decisions... and I just feel that life sux... from the choice of schools, to the choice of course of study and many other personal decisions... Then again, I was posed this question, "won't life just be an empty shell if everything turned out the way you wanted and you're happy with everything else?" I won't call it an empty shell, but its just part of me, chasing after a fantasy world, without all the harshness of reality. Perhaps its all due to the over-protective environment I have grown up in. But what's so bad about having everything turn out the way you want it, without you having to go through all the pain and hurt when u fall, and drain yourself of all energy and life trying to stand up again. Worse happens when after you fall, you can no longer stand.

Of course, looking on the flip side, it is the ups and downs that enables us to mature and become wiser, so that we won't make the same mistakes once more.

Suppose my mood is greatly affected by the weather. It has been gloomy, with loads of precipitation... needa find my direction in life quick or I'll just continue to 'disintegrate' and waste myself away...

MLB

The crazy me was in action once more today.

Made a really last min decision to send my cuz off at the airport. Took a cab at abt 1140 when her flt was at 1240. The cab driver would have likely sensed my urgency. I really wanted to tell him to drive faster, but seeing that he's averaging ard 100km/hr, decided not to get him into trouble for speeding. When I dropped off, he actually said, "good luck". Er, cab driver must have watched too many dramas and thot this was going to be something dramatic like me rushing to the airport to stop someone from leaving or something. "Good luck"? LoL. Bumped into my teacher at the airport while carrying Jayden. What a joke! He actually thought I was married and checked that out with my cuz!!

In the afternoon, I went for the MLB gathering. For those who know who they are, good. For those who don't, doesn't matter, just remember that I can be tiz crazy too. Heez. My main motive there was to collect the tee and of course meet them. But yet, I know I won't be able to fit in with the people there due to generation gap. There were a couple of ppl there whom I know, but it was still relatively weird. Played a game of bingo together and I was in the green team, with Sam as the leader. Everyone's really shy and reserved in this group. But didn't matter since we won! And the prize, an autographed picture (now sitting on my desk).

Most fortunate thing, K turned up after the game! I was really elated to see her. Somehow, despite having only met twice, I would say that we hit it off pretty well. Its good that she's really sociable and we're of similar frequencies, so could hit it off pretty well. Farni thing is how she always thought that I am younger than her when in fact I was older. The happiest thing has to be the fact that I took a pic with him!! Although, due to K's 'muscle spasm', the pic's a little blurry. Happi, Happi, Happi!!

Here's the tee design..

Enjoyin' the sea breeze

Thought of doin somethin last nite, but somethin happened, or rather din happened, that got me rather fed-up, disappointed and upset. Luckily, SX, the fren who never fails to be always there for me, came out to meet me despite the call only at the eleventh hour. Din wanna stay in an enclosed area, we got our ice blended mocha and headed to sit by the beach instead.

We wonder just what is wrong with ppl of our generation. We've all probably been in the workforce for only 2-3 yrs, but yet, most of us are seeking an escape route out of this workforce. Also, it seems that none of us have an answer to the question, "what do u want in life"? Most of my frens are in the profession they are in simply because of the monetary rewards despite the endless complains that they are not happy with whatever they are doing. The "kiasi" syndrome seems to be the most predominant trait of most. Ppl just fear venturing out of their comfort zone. The thought of going back to school for another couple of years to get the necessary qualifications in order to pursue their interests seem to be something worse then death. But we've still got to work for several decades. What is these couple of yrs compared to the couple of decades. Personally, I can understand the fear for I have had to overcome it to take the step I took. In fact, I am one of the guilty ones who have planned my own escape route.

Have we been brought up in such comfortable and sheltered environments that we can't deal with the harshness of the work environment? If so, then what's going to happen to the future generations whose lives have been a whole lot better. Does this have to do with the education system in SG, which had always focused on rote learning (monkey-see, monkey-do kind), rather then developing us to think for ourselves, and to be concerned with issues beyond the textbooks.

So, do I know what I want then? I always thought I knew until I ventured out and realised that its only pseudo greener pastures out there. Nothing real, nothing tangible. But I don't regret the decision I made for I know I have tried and found out for myself that its not what I am truely looking for. Many ppl are remaining where they are and thinking damn hard, will that be what I want? U'll never know till you try. Whatever the decision made, sacrificies are bound to be aplenty. I'm still coming to terms with the pay differential, which has just widened given that my peers from my ex-firm got an increment. If I were still there, I probably would say, "so what if I get so much money? I ain't happy with what I'm doing." But now that I'm out, I say, "Ahhhh, my heart pains at the amount of money I have given up!!" From here, I conclude that I am not someone who can be contended with what I have. LoL.

I don't supposed there will be any workable solutions. We've all been moulded to be like this. Kinda wishy-washy, only complaining non-stop and not doing anything about it. I wished I had a solution too.. then not only can I help myself, I could help my frens out there who're all in the same boat.

Something really farni happened tho, while we we were enjoying our conversation. Some 'little bois' actually tried to pick us up. This tickled the both of us hard. We concluded that they must be really bored but nonetheless, an unspoken compliment to the both of us for looking youthful. LoL.

SX, thanks for keeping me company. U're such a sweet fren. Well, work's gonna be really busy for you and I know very well the kind of mental stress u're facing. But I also know that u'll be able to handle all the stress and work coming your way. You will be guided through everything. =)

You're GREAT!

Just read from the Rover forum that 10 has been awarded her BPA!! Though she doesn't know about the existence of this blog, still wanna congratulate her for the hard work she has put in and the perserverance to have come this far. All the effort was well worth it =)

BPA used to be 1 of the items on my 'to achieve' list. But guess I just din have the determination to follow through it. I had embarked on the process, but as usual, when people around me started dropping out of Rovering, I did likewise as I found it hard to continue without the support of a Group. Rovering were fun times. I'm sure many can attest to that. It was through Rovering that I made a close friend in PS, learnt so much so much about things that i'll never find in books, had the opportunity to try out so many different things and pick up skills which I will have otherwise never got close to learning... The annual camps organised, the training camps and workshops attended, the trips, hiking, nite walks, the sailing, kayaing, power boating.. all the beautiful memories.. missed those adventurous days... *sobz*

Coming to think of it, it was a pity that I gave up. Together with the BPA, I also gave up the woodbadge, something which I was pretty close to obtaining already. I had completed the requisite camps and courses and did 2 out of 6 projects required. Well, no one to blame, except myself. 10 did try to get me involved at the national level initially after the lack of support at the Group level. But after a couple of times where I didn't make it, she felt that it was pointless to ask someone who ain't interested. Not that I wasn't interested but at that point in time, the agenda on the books was kinda different. Couple of reasons but it was mainly due to work commitments.

Supposed learning about this struck a strong cord in me to prompt me to write this entry immediately. LoL. This will be another notable regret in my life.

Rovers, still remember back in 1999 when we first stepped into Marlin?? Realised in another 2 years, it'll be our 10 yr anniversary... Any possibility of getting everyone in one country and doing something adventurous again?? Its gonna be a huge grand plan with age catchin up with us and people located across the continents, but I think this is worth a thot. hmmmz^^