Resolutions?

I pondered long and hard... Is there any point in making new year resolutions? How many ppl actually do remember the resolutions they made and kept to them? *shrugs*

Its come to the end of 2006. But really, neither my frens nor I can recall what happened durin the year. It seemed jus like yesterday when we were still struggling through peak in the 1st qtr of the year. No one seem to have much recollection about 2006. No one had anythin good to comment abt the year. Everyone seem to be suffering from amnesia or has 2006 been so terrible for all? Nothing memorable, nothing worth mentioning.. how sad can life get??

With 2006 being such an uneventful year, 2007 can't get any worse ya? Just a couple of things I want to remind myself of in 2007,

1. find my religious direction and strenghten my relationship with the Lord
2. be more disciplined in work, studies
3. re-find/re-build my direction in life
4. leave tis lonely place
5. be less tempremental

Let 2007 be a greater year for all my frens out there! 2006 will be over, so let's not look back any longer.. look fwd and continue to perserve in whatever u're doin! someday, u'll understand why things happen the way they do! Minasan, gambarimasu!!!

1995

That was 11 years ago, when we all first met. Everyone donned in a white shirt with metal buttons and blue bottom. We were then 13. 21 Dec 2006, Suntec City. We all met up again. We are now 24.

I really wouldn't have imagined that we would have a class gathering after so long. We weren't an exceptionally close class to begin with and back then, there were too many unpleasantries that marred the friendships between many. I had my reservations as to whether the gathering will turn out well.

As usual, had work dropped on me at the eleventh hour and there was no way I could leave having had that kinda feedback given to me jus the day before. I would've just packed and brought work home instead if not for impression management. Crap! In the end, I only managed to leave ard 9 odd, shortly after my boss.

Went down together with Aki. The rest were done with dinner by the time we got there. I was a little taken aback by the large grp (16 in total). It took me a while to recognise everyone of them! Most of them hadn't changed much, including their characters. Just that it has been ages since I last saw them and I needed some time to register their looks. The usual lame and crappy ppl were still their usual selves, out to irritate everyone else. Think it was such a pity that we missed dinner where all of them had so much fun digging up all the nicknames and happenings of yesteryear.

(Sitting L-R: Eden, Madeline, TuanEng, me, Aki

Standing L-R: Yuchun, Yvonne, Hongjing, PeiPei, Warren, Kelly, Weikai, ThongLee, Jianwen, ChangHsu, Colin)

Look at all the happy smilez on our faces!! Guess from there, you can tell how glad everyone was. Fond memories of those innocent times keep flashing back, especially when I'm feeling all weary and tired of the added responbilities of growing up. It was a nice opportunity to forget all the worries and just reminisce about the happy times.

Thanks Weikai for the initiative of this gathering. He has to be one who has changed the most. From the quiet and nonsensical young kid to the matured and serious person he is right now.

Thanks Aki for Mukgu too!! Its now hanging on my wardrobe ^^

Happy when busy and tired

When PS asked me what she could pick up this winter on top of work, DGS and climbing, I just went 'DUH'. I thought those were enough to keep her busy, but apprarently it wasn't so. DGS and climbing had become part of her routine, and she needed to look for something else on top of that. Last winter, she managed to squeeze in time to do her mandatory papers as well, and without that in the way this year, she believes she has time for more activities.

We started discussing about how we've been engaged in so many other activities besides just work. Come to think of it, we've yet to stop studying since graduating from Uni. Besides work + study, we're also both actively involved in so many other activities. But PS certainly has more things on her schedule compared to mine. Studying is to aid our progress in work and all other activities are out of pure interest.

I had always like Jap and dance. This year just happened to be the most suitable time for me to get engaged in all these. Albeit I am beginning to feel tired, but I really love the lessons and at least I know that when I were to look back in the future, I can tell myself that I've done things which I'm interested in, and wouldn't be so disappointed with how I led my life.

All I can say is that we're 2 people who really wanna live our lives to the fullest. Lots of sleep has been sacrificed but I would believe that we're both very happy. Hence, PS said to me, "I think u're happy when busy and tired, rather than being free and bored". I think the same goes for you as well PS! Let us continue with our crazy schedules and keep each other going despite the geographical seperation!!

So looking forward to your return in 4 days!!! Countdown ticker is ticking away.. =)

When the results was announced

Last friday, I was eagerly anticipating the results of the winning bid for the Sentosa IR as it would affect me quite greatly. Well, the government sure had her way of keeping people in suspense! Results were due to be announced only at the end of the day at 5.30pm!!

When the results was announced, I felt my heart drop in two-fold. First was to heave a sigh of relief that I will have a wonderful Christmas afterall. Second was that I will never have that nice piece of experience to add to my resume. I had put in quite a bit of effort before the results, researching, analysing and forecasting. It was great experience and I loved it despite the late nights I put in. A project of this scale is a kind of one in a life time thingy and is unlikely to come by anytime soon. So felt kinda disappointed.

Well, my fren tried to cheer me on saying that something better will come in my way in place of this opportunity lost. I certainly hope so. That's the reason why I moved over in the first place. Have faith ^^

Chicago beckoning

Lately, I've been receiving mailers telling me of opportunities in Price's Chicago office. This is more of an internal mailer where I had left my gmail contact back then. Frens from Price will know about the Global Opportunites page. Chicago's beckoning!! No doubt I am certainly not qualified for the roles they are looking to fill, but no harm submitting my application. PS's overjoyed on hearing this and is even more excited than I am right now! This time round, I'm DEFINITELY putting in my application! No more BUTS and leave the rest in the hands of God.

Sleep Tite, Dun Let the Bedbugs bite

None of that held true last nite. I had such a disturbed sleep that I'm feelin' so tired now.. Gone to bed at ard 2am and woke up at about an hour later, itching all over. Thinking that it was the mosquitoes disturbing me, I went to get the mosquito repellant. It helped a little, but through the nite, I was flippin', tossin', scratchin'...

When I finally woke up, I showed my bro the bites. It din looked anything like mosquito bites. He said it could be sandfly. 'Duh'! How can there be sandflies in my room?? Where does he think we're staying? I went on to tell my dad. He was shocked and said its BUGS!!! Then we started the bug catching adventure. It didn't help that people usually only have a pillow and a bolster, but I had like 3 pillows, 4 bolsters, 3 large soft toys on my bed. We slowly went through these 1 by 1, catchin' those irritating bugs. Caught a total of 8 of them. They're really hardy. Instead of killing them straight, dad put them in a container of water to drown them. But they were still moving ard in the water for quite a while. My bro was the crazy one. Don't know if he gets a kick out of it or what, but he squashed the bugs one by one in the water. So the water kinda turned into a sea of red..

Dad said I must have brought the bugs back from the club I went to. =\ He's just afraid that the eggs laid by the bugs are still stuck somewhere around. He said we'll have to go through the bug-catching exercise again next week. Let's hope there ain't anymore. Itch and eekss!!

Fate

Had spent the last couple of days watching yet another Korean drama - My Girl. The first couple of episodes will make you think that the storyline is rather similar to that of Goong. However, watching the show right till the end, you'll find that there are similarities, but these are essentially 2 different shows. Aki asked which show I prefer? Frankly, I do not have an answer. I love both shows, thanks to being such a romance flick lover^^.

In both shows, it was always such that the rich guy will end up fallin in love with a gal whom he never would have imagined it possible that he will have the slightest interest in her! The gal is always someone who's of a lower social status, unable to carry herself well/be able to fit into the atas society, but they are essentially very bubbly and are like 傻大姐. Its literally the ugly duckling turning into a beautiful princess.

No doubt this is the reel life. But it got me thinking of 2 questions.
1. Is there really such a thing called fate?
2. Can 2 ppl who seem so different really be together?

I would think that I am a fate believer. I always feel that if something is meant to be, it will happen. Otherwise, no matter how hard you try, nothing comes out of it. But then again, how to know what fate is dictating for you right now? Something which I thought was fated to be, suddenly turned out to be otherwise. When I decide to ignore it, this fate thingy seem to come into play again. Then it disappears once more. This 'ding-donging' has happened more than once, such that I no longer know what to believe in. Hence, it got me to question if there really is such a thing called fate and how in the world would you know how to read the signs? I'm getting more and more confused..

I had always been a believer that no difference can be so huge that it could prevent 2 ppl from being together. But I had been proven wrong once and it was a heavy price which I paid for not believing otherwise. After that, I learnt my lesson and made my stand very clear. Then I begin to ponder again. Had I been too single-minded in my thinking that left no room for miracles to occur??

Everything just seem to point to the fact that my logics have all failed me, which explains the predicament I am in right now. However, I just refuse to believe that my logics ain't logical! Either way, its causing me quite a bit of grief. I'm in such a confused state of mind right now!!
*sighz*

Sometimes, I just wished that I was a marionette. Then I wouldn't have to bother about anything, nor get myself all confused over things that I'll never have an answer to. All I have to do is allow myself to be controlled by others, to allow others to tell me exactly what I ought/ought not to do. Then, there'll no longer be confusion and the exasperation that comes along with it. Somewhat of an escapism nature, but much less tiring...