Sunday, August 27, 2006

该不会重蹈覆辙吧?

好久没使用华语了。平日的交谈也多半是使用英语。因此,心血来潮, 就想以华语
来写这个BLOG。但是,我的华语程度已经一落千丈,现在可能只有小学水准吧。 时
不时还得请教我的表妹。她真是无法相信我以前可是修读高级华文的。嘿嘿! 是有
点对不起华语老师。。。 在此先说声 “对不起”, 因为接下来一定会念到很
多很多的错别字。请大家多多原谅。^^

为何会说重蹈覆辙呢? 因为我可能又再次喜欢上不该喜欢的人了。不须想太多, 我
指的并不是有妇之夫那类的。只不过是喜欢向他那类型的人会让自己感到很疲惫吧。
因为性格,背景都相差好多好多。。。有如此大的差异,两人还真能在一起吗?

昨晚,在用餐时才刚和朋友们讨轮到信仰的差别是否会是情侣的绊脚石。大家似乎都
有各自的看法与见解,也有实际例子。到最后都没人能有个解决的方法。 我认为不
论是信仰还是其它的差别,在恋爱中的两人总会觉得那并不是什么难克服的问题。
但相处的时间长了,却会发觉双方的距离因那差异而被拉得越来越远。在这个时候,
两人又该如何呢? 如果两人都能互相让步, 还有商量的余地。否则,两人的缘分就
只能到此了。

受过一次伤的我本该学乖点, 但爱情这东西真是令人难以捉摸。越是想逃避,它越
是紧跟着你不放。我很感谢上天让我们相遇和相识。这让我又多了一个知己。但这
也同时让我感叹, “上天,为何您要如此捉弄我呢?”我对爱情这东西已失去了信
心,也对它感到非常疲累了。不须在如此开我的玩笑吧!

故事接下来的发展会是如何呢? 绝对不会是晴天霹雳的。因为他也说过,在这世上,
没有任何东西是长久的,还是做朋友来的好。

Sunday, August 20, 2006

How ya doin??

Gatherings galore!!

Had a JC gathering on Thurs. Not so much of a class gathering, since there was only 8 of us, the usual few. Dinner was MaLa HuoGuo at Geylang. The table was a little small to sit the 8 of us, but we wanted the round table as it allowed for more interaction. The last we had a class gathering was 1/2 a yr back. We only have gatherings when Winson's back for his hols. We really had to go round the table, updating what each are doing at the moment. The guys are all finally in their final year. It feels so long since I graduated. Though we're all of the same age, I feel 'older' compared to them, because I'm the one who has worked the longest amongst all. So work really makes one feel much older. Hmm, if only I can go back to school, just to feel younger. LOL. It was buffet, so we, or rather I really ate alot. My appetite has been increasing ever since my trip to Melbourne. Arrgghhh.. I'd better watch my food intake, or I'm going to tip (my own) scales!! Its really really great to catch up like this. Totally made me forget everything about work. Next gathering, scheduled for 1/2 a yr later, when Winson is back and will call us out again. Grace's bf sent all the gals home after. Very nice of him, to come all the way from AMK, just to send her home.

There were 2 gatherings scheduled on Fri, both with my ex-colleagues. But given my energy level, only managed to attend one. Sorry to the other group, esp the bdae gal, for not turning up as promised. Had dinner at Vilage. Not a place I would like to have dinner on a Fri night, but the Raffles Place area is quieter, less crowded, and hence, a better choice for a gathering. All of us can be considered to be ex-PwC staff already. The remaining 2 are serving their notice right now. We've all moved out to the different banks, except for 1. She's still going to be in audit, Sydney this time around. I was really surprised to find out about it. She has never made any mention about it and never would have thought that she could leave everything behind and just go off like that. When I found out about it, I could feel the tinge of sadness in me. I wondered to myself, I could've done that, and I'll be out of SG within the next 3 mths. I am still unsure about my new job, so when I heard about her leaving SG audit, all the more I felt upset. Audit is certainly still something that I'm more comfortable with. But one won't learn nor grow if she doesn't step out of her comfort zone right? I've stepped out of mine, and believe that it will allow me to scale greater heights, that is if I have what it takes.

The only 1 left behind in PwC from this team that I used to work with is the manager. He doesn't have a choice. He had his 2 years of fun in Australia, now its time for him to 'pay back'. He's bonded and have about another 1.5 yrs to go. Its farni how he keeps complaining about every other thing to us. Well, 1.5 yrs isn't that long. It'll pass by without you even knowing about it.

The 1 and only thing that I miss most about my ex-firm, is the people. Its like going back to school. All your school peers are working together with you. Seniors in school are now your seniors at work. It was so much fun!! We were not mere colleagues. We are FRIENDS!! I MISS ALL OF YOU!!!

There was supposed to be another gathering on Sat evening. But I was so drained I couldn't make it down at all. Felt so bad for not turning up at the very last minute. I wasn't drained from work, more drained from all other activities that fills my schedule. Have resumed my Jap classes. So now, Saturdays are gone.

Met up with the Sec. sch galfrenz on Sunday. We spent a lazy evening at Parkway. We were talking about investments, about how to make our money work harder rather than just sit in the bank to 'earn' the interest that cannot be seen. Naturally, they all turn to me for advise. Sorry galz, I'm just as clueless as all of you are. Feel so dumb. After all this while, still can't grapple how to go about investing my money. All I know to do is splurge and splurge I did!!! I bought the handphone I've set my eyes on since some time back. It cost quite a bit. Shall take very good care of this phone so that I can use it for a longer period of time! I hate to be out when I'm feeling vexed. I just end up slpurging to make myself feel better. Super bad habit!!

I need to save.
I need to save. I need to save. I need to save. I need to save. I need to save. I need to save. I need to save. I need to save. I need to save. I need to save. I need to save. I need to save. I need to save. I need to save. I need to save. I need to save. I need to save. I need to save. I need to save. I need to save. I need to save. I need to save. I need to save. I need to save.

That's like trying desperately to cast a spell on myself. Sighz.

Sunday, August 13, 2006

Till I'm back again

I really really love this song. It has been on repeat ever since I first heard it. So, just wanna share this beautiful song with all. It might be simple, but listen to it with ur heart. Its bound to melt u somewhat.

Till I'm Back Again - http://media.putfile.com/till-im-back-again
Composed and sang by Nic

Live for today
Hope for tomorrow
Embrace all we have
Forget about the sorrows
Time slips away
Like sand through our fingers
But if you're there to see me leave just kiss me
And say Goodbye

Just hold me now and don't let me go
Its hard for you to take it
Forget me till I'm back again

A tear just to soothe your pain
Then I wanna see you smiling
Forget me till I'm back again

Hold my hand
Until the final moment
The touch of your skin
A feeling I'll remember
I'm just afraid
That I'll be gone tomorrow
I'll cherish every moment spent with you
Will you...

Just hold me now don't let me go
Its hard for you to take it
Forget me till I'm back again
A tear just to soothe your pain
Then I wanna see you smiling
Forget me till I'm back

Just hold me now dont't let me go
Its not that complicated
Forget me till I'm back again
A tear just to soothe your pain
Then I wanna see you smiling
Forget me... Till I'm back again

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

Tales from Down Under

This is the 3rd consecutive year where I've travelled alone. Each time I return, I always tell myself, "yea, it was fun, but I ought to stop travelling alone!" Its fun exploring a new place all by yourself, but there's no one to share the fun with during the trip and that takes away half the fun! But I never keep to my resolution. Still, I hope this really will be the last time.

This trip was a super impromptu one. I couldn't have planned for a change of job ahead of time, let alone be able to foretell that my request to serve a shorter notice be accepted. So, I got my tickets on Fri, and flew off the following Tues. Took me some time to persuade my Mum to allow me to go. Of all places, why Melbourne, I was asked. I was just looking at some place where the life was much slower, where I can relax and slow things down a little. Australia would make a nice destination and I could get free accomodation in Melbourne. I would have loved to travel to Chicago to meet PS, but US is a little too far for a one week trip. Yep, so I ended up in Melbourne.

Day 1
First time I took an early morn flight. I always had the impression that the DFS stores are open 24 hours. I was evidently wrong. Lucky for the terminals that provided me with free internet access and Uncle Tim for the online photos of his roadtrip, or I think I would have died of boredom at the airport.

It was evening by the time I got into Melbourne. Surprisingly, it wasn't as cold as I had expected it to be. Had Chinese food for dinner because my frens were craving for it. The portions here are HUGE!! Not that I'm a small eater, even my guy frens didn't finish their food! Adjourned to this Cafe - KokoBlack for coffee after. The hot cocoa and the ice-cream tasted so good. I so love sitting along one of these street side cafes, sipping away at a hot drink and watch the world pass you by on a cool winter night!

Then, we (or rather they) did stupid things at KS's apartment, while I watched on. Stupid because KS will so scream her head off at them the next day. But in their words, that's how they kill time at night. LoL.

Day 2
Since the motive of my trip was to relax, I didn't bother with alarms. I woke up only when I feel like getting out of bed, which, was close to noon already. Heh. Went off to explore the city on my own since my friends had lessons. The city's really small that you can cover it by foot. Since I was travelling alone, I had to ask people to help me take pictures. I approached this group of Chinese and spoke to them (of course) in Chinese. But that stunned them. As they were walking away, heard them discussing among themselves that they thought I was Korean! I shall just take that as a compliment.

Yea!! Was invited to dinner at my ex-colleagues place. YS met up with me at 630pm to bring me over to their place. 630pm!!! Its peak period there, yet, she can get off this early. Those in SG, the thought of it sux right? Our peak days, perhaps end at 12 - 1am the next morning!!
Thought I could sample Mich's cooking but nope, she couldn't get off work in time to cook since she gets home only at 7-ish. Instead, their housemate cooked for us. There was quite a spread! Steam fish, pasta, pork, veggie. She really can cook! I was told that Mich can really cook too. It was a really short dinner, because I had to rush off to catch a movie.

Movie's supposed to be at 8pm. But we went in only around 830pm. There's some student special where the tix is 1-for-1, which was why I watched a movie there. Or I was told, a movie ticket there cost ard A$15. After the show, I was asked if I wanted to go to the all-famous Casino. I told them I don't mind taking a look, but I don't gamble. To that, I got a reply, "I also don't gamble, I only play. Gambling is about greed, about wanting to win money." LoL. A good one there. Well, the only thing I've ever played in a casino was the slots machine. I know nuts about all the other games. 4 of us stopped at the roulette table. 3 were completely lost at how it's played, so the 4th person had to explain how the game works. Haha.

It was off to more food after. Dessert at Greccos!! Its this dessert place that serve really delicious cakes! The variety was crazy. But we couldn't order that many either since every slice was, as usual, large! Our orders - tiramisu, some custard cake (none of us can pronounce that word), mars cheesecake and banana cake. Except for the mars cheesecake, the rest of the cakes were only half-eaten. Such a waste! But we really really couldn't eat anymore. We hang around the place, chatting till about 2 plus before heading back. Bunked at another fren's place because I didn't have keys to get back and felt bad about waking my fren in the middle of the night. Slept only for about 1.5hrs in e early morn and got woken up by my fren who was trying to cook at 630am! I'm astonished! No matter how hungry I am, I don't think I'll ever cook at 630am. I'll just grab anything that's ready-to-eat. That's how lazy I am. Heh. Neways, him cooking means I get to eat too!! Ooohh... I'm such a leech. Bleah.

Day 3
After a sleepless night, I slept most of the day away. Went out in the late afternoon and took the city tram around. Checked out Docklands, their waterfront living area. If only I could afford to live at the waterfront. Sigh. Will this day ever come? Dinner was Greek food. The dips are so delicious! Y do food portions have to be so huge here? If only they were smaller, then I would be able to try more stuff.

Juf's fren was bored after having slept for I think the last 24hrs and is wide awake now! So he came over and we player poker. Loser was to drink tequila shots. Eeekss. After the tequila shots downed during every company's bash, I really don't wish to have to drink tequila. Luckily, I was on a winning streak! I was really dead tired, and wished to sleep. I was going to the Great Ocean Road early tomorrow morning, and I really don't wish to oversleep and miss the trip. It was about 3am by the time he left.

Day 4
I opened my eyes, and realised something's really wrong. The sky's a little too bright for the time that I'm supposed to be up by. Grabbed my phone and to my horror, its 720am!!! AHHHHH!! I was supposed to be at the pickup location at 715am!! I wondered why I didn't hear my alarm?? Luckily, the bus was a little late in setting off too and I had a contact no which they could get me on, and getting them to wait for about 10 mins was alright. Don't ask me how, but I managed to get ready in like 5 mins. If only I could do that every morning, then I'll have more time in bed. Heh.

About 2 hrs into the bus ride out of the city, my phone started vibrating. I wondered who it might be? The earlier mystery's solved! Not that I didn't hear the alarm go off, its just that, it never went off. The dodo me forgot that my phone is SG time, which is 2 hours behind. I would've so knocked my head against the wall had I not made it for this trip to the Great Ocean Road all because I was so silly.


The 12 (rather 8) apostles


I ain't the only one going on this day trip alone. There were 2 other gals who were alone too. So naturally, we cliqued. Lauren's from Boston, doing her post graduate course at the moment. Claudia's from Israel. But she's Chinese, her parents are from Hong Kong. She's a yr younger than me, spent a whole year backpacking in Australia. 1 entire year!! There's a young korean couple who spent half a year backpacking in OZ too. These people just make me so envious of them!! Funny thing is, Claudia thought I was only 20 when in fact, I'm older than her. She looks really tough! The super independent and don't come mess with me look! Kinda intimidating actually, but good for a gal who's backpacking on her own. Apparently in Israel, its really common for people to take a year off to travel before they start university. After high school, the guys will serve military for 3 yrs, while the gals do it for 2 yrs. Then they'll travel for a year before returning for college. At 23, 24, then they'll start college. At that age, I've been working for almost 2 yrs already!! Arrgghhh! Why isn't it in SG's culture where people take a year off to travel before they start work or something? Everyone here is just so eager to get into the work force as soon as they can. Madness. All 3 of us had something in common - that is, we're all single, having just walked out of a relationship in the last year or so. It was fun, sharing our stories along the way =p Looking at the korean couple made me wonder when I'll ever be able to do that - go on a long trip with my bf. That day is still really really faraway, and perhaps will only occur in my dreams. Haha.

It was the first time the driver cum guide took a group out to the Great Ocean Road. She took a couple of wrong turns but luckily, she always realises it fast enough. On our journey back, she even had to engage the help of another passenger to read the map and navigate for her.

I love the Great Ocean Road and the weather was really brilliant for a day out along the coast. The sun was up, took away part of the chill and made the surroundings look so much more pretty. It helped that I really love the sea too! Thinking back, I ought to have stayed along the coast for a night, then I would be able to catch the sunrise the next morning. Its alright! I believe I'll visit again!

Day 5
Juf's fren kindly agreed to bring us out to one of the vineyards in Yarra Valley, and also to drop by and take a look at the puffing billy, an authentic steam train. The drive to Yarra wasn't that far, about an hour odd. Its winter, the planting season, no grapes to see. But the scenery is spectacular and the air, exceptionally fresh. Its as though ur heart beats slower, everything ard u is so serene and peaceful. Really relaxing and refreshing. After tasting the wine, we drove down to a small town, Belgrave, to catch the puffing billy train. The train is fully run by volunteers who're residents of that small town. We were discussing about how nice life will be in that little town. Everything's so simple and laid-back there. But of course, one cannot know about the temptations that exist in the outside world. To us, we reckoned that we won't be able to live that kind of simple life after all these years of living admist the temptations. Even if possible, it would only be for a short while, as we take a breather from our crazy lives.

Lunch was fish and chips, and we ate in this playground in the town. The warmth of the food as you hold it in your hands and slowly savour it in the cold was so nice!! LOL. I kinda like the weather there quite a bit.

Had Viet food for dinner with Mich and adjourned to this greek dessert place. I seriously don't think I eat as much in SG. Seems like I was bingeing in Melbourne!!

Day 6
On the way to Church, we met with an accident. Its literally starting the day with a BANG! No one was hurt, except for the car. Hmm, not sure how much the repairs are going to cost. Met up with ur bro and cuzs for lunch PS. Ur bro suggested this pancake house. Great choice cos I like pancakes!! But the mirror at the entrance was kinda wrong. Its those mirrors that make u look fat! Place that at the entrance, who in the world is going to eat ur pancakes after seeing themselves so fat?? LoL. But of course we didn't bother about it and had our fill!

We all went our separate ways after lunch and I wasted the rest of the afternoon away.

Day 7
Procrastination the day before, left me unable to go on a day trip to Philip Island to watch the penguins. Weather forecast had said it was going to rain, which was why I hesitated. Then, I happen to see my cousin online who told me to choose shopping over Philip Island. Now, I still can't understand, how my cousin, a guy, could spend an entire day shopping at Smith Street. In an hour or so, I was bored. Nothing caught my eye in the shops. So, I decided to try something crazy. I read that there are trains that go to Philip Island, so I rushed down to the visitor's centre to check things out and see if I can make my own way there. Now, its really not possible to RUSH in Melbourne. The trams are so slow, that they just drive you nuts should you be in a hurry. But it didn't really matter. I was told that transportation to the island is really limited. Its either you drive yourself there or take the day tour. Its not possible to catch a train there. Oh well, having drove a short distance the other day at Yarra Valley, I know I can't possibly be navigating AND driving at the same time. Moreover, it was a rainy day and by the time the penguin parade ends, its goin to be late in the night. The highways have no streetlamps, and I ain't confident of driving in that kind of pitch darkness.

In the end, I explored South Melbourne in the afternoon. It was a superbly cold day since it had been raining on and off throughout. Didn't help that there aren't big shopping centres in the south. It was mainly littered with cafes along the streets with a whole stretch of the St Kilda's beach. So, I was kinda freezing out there.

Jap dinner tonight. Words can't describe how glad I was when I finally stepped into the warmth of the restaurant! I ain't the only one cause my friend was freezing cold too! As usual, it was off to drinks after dinner. My friend brought me to this place called Lounge. I was pleasantly suprised that coffee is served in a pub. We sat at the alfresco area cause the air was less polluted by cigarette smoke. But I didn't last long there. I was freezing depsite sitting directly in front of the heater. Went along with my friend to collect some stuff and had to walk in the strong cold winds. It was so cold, I wished I could just dig a hole and hide underground!! Haha.

Last day
Only went to Queen Victoria Market to buy all the goodies back for my dear family and friends in SG. Mich was free and in the city, so she came by and have lunch with me =)

After a week, I've adjusted to the weather and the pace of life there. But its also time for me to return to SG. *Sighz* its always like that.

Sat next to this Singaporean, Aussie PR on the flight back. Typically, she's a commerce student. Just that she's doing her PhD right now. In her 1st yr, she was homesick, but right now, she doesn't want to come back. Heh. I guess I can understand. I would love to live on my own too. But it doesn't work in SG. No one rents. Everyone lives with their parents, unlike in other countries. Don't get me wrong here. I love my family and they do give me the freedom that I want and is always supportive of all that I do. But the constant naggings still exist. I want the space without all the naggings. The more I travel, the more I yearn to move out and live on my own. Will this day ever come?? Hmm... PS, waiting for you to come back and rent a place with me!!