Clubbing, Cantopub style?

Had been working hard the past weeks, hence, decided to head out for a drink with my ex-colleagues. The newest addition to the night scene - St James Power Station. Thought it would be interesting to check that out. They had to work till 11-ish, so we met up pretty late. Got there way earlier then them and 'floated' ard like a lost soul. It was my first time there and I don't really know where to go. There're a couple of different themed rooms there. We went to Dragonfly, apparently the more favoured place by many. While queueing to enter, both of them told me that they don't tink I will like the place. Hmm... I wonder why...

To my shock, we bumped into a whole group of my ex-colleagues from the same CG, including the managers! I really am very surprised. I never knew they were this close that they would go clubbing together! Well, neways, back to the place. It was really really packed. The crowd was obviously the more matured group, with a lot of uncles and aunties and those lao bengs with tattoos all over their bodies! When the performance started, I couldn't help myself and laughed non-stop. They sang CHINESE oldies!! Never been to a club where the music was Chinese oldies. I had saw that on tv when they were advertising the place, but to be there and watching and hearing it live, really, is very different. Sylvester, the Singapore Idol 1 first runner-up performs there as well. He's one of the 2 who sings slightly more pop and hip songs like those by Jay Chou. The other guy, who's rather good-looking sings songs that are more rock. Other than the 2 of them, I think the performances aren't anything to scream about. I even felt that some of the performances were kinda sleazy, as though you were in a nightclub. It felt more like attending a Chinese concert rather than clubbing. The revival of the Cantopubs? LoL.

We din check out the other rooms. It was just too interesting to watch the performances. LoL. According to my friends, they sing the same songs everytime. If that's the case, then I think its really boring. I wouldn't want to go back after being there once. The other themed rooms include a Jazz, R&B... wouldn't mind checking these out the next time round. My friend asked me, "Is this too chee-na for you?" Erm.. I never knew I came across as someone who's an English potato to her. Haha.. Frankly it wasn't that it was too chee-na for me. That's not an issue. In fact, I think I know more of the songs sang as compared to her. Besides chinese, there were cantonese rock songs by the likes of Beyond too. I would think its worth a visit, just to experience something very different as compared to the mainstream clubs/pubs. I would definitely be going back there again, but to the other themed rooms instead.

MoodSwings

可能是太经常用英语的关系吧， 现在一旦不开心就会用华语来表达。

突然又感觉心情好低落，觉得好孤独。心里只想着要在那无边无际的海洋上望着天上那如此遥远的星星。我又再次流泪了。。。在过一个多月就是圣诞佳节了。但却一点都感觉不到那喜悦的气氛，反而感到心很闷。

最近的工作特别繁重。在时间上虽然还能够应负， 但我却领悟到自己的能力也只不过如此而已。或许我真的并不适合在商场上拼斗吧。我并不知道我能撑多久。。。就拿昨天来说吧。上司对我说了声“谢谢”。但我知道我并没帮上任何忙，也照实的跟他说了。虽然对自己的无能感到惭愧，另一方面却是非常开心， 因为手上的工作终于暂时到个段落，我终于能喘口气了。听起来很怪吧。心情同时又是开心又是低落，似乎有点疯了。我也不知为何会是如此。

好久都没到外婆家去探望她老人家了。刚好今天下了班没其它节目，就顺道去陪陪她。到了门口，看到她在椅子上睡着了。其实我当时看到那一幕时，心里感到非常不安。我好害怕她会永远就这样睡下去。虽然知道生老病死是免不了的，但还是会害怕，会伤心难过。幸好我去探望她。原来厨房漏水，她不能煮饭， 脚又疼，只好一个人弄些麦片吃。我听了更是心酸。她是有儿女，也有孙女的，但看起来却和那些无儿女的老人没什么分别。我真的真的很难过。我们都没扮演好各自的角色。当外婆拿出表妹送她的纪念品让我看时，我能感觉到她有多么的高兴。她一直对我说个不停，可见她有多么的孤独。。。

在回家的路上，我不尽然的想起爷爷、舅公、外公和奶奶过世时的那幕。泪水也不由自主的流下。我曾经对自己说过一定要珍惜能与外婆相处的时间，因为我不要在失去后才后悔。但我还是没做到! 我对自己感到非常非常失望。原来我也只不过是个只会说，却不实现诺言的人。我太讨厌自己了!!!

迟些时候，妈妈回来了。我对她说了外婆的情况。她这时告知我说外婆最近经常说她脚很疼，也越来越少到楼下走走了。这并不是我所认识的外婆。她一向来都很喜欢跟着外公到处去。但自从外公过世后，她却只有到楼下与其他老人家聊聊天的份，因为没人带她出门。现在，她连门也不踏出一步。。。

小时候就很想快些长大，但长大后却一直想着回到那无优无虑的童年。成长过程夹带著太多太多的责任与烦恼了。我想我真正希望逃避的就是成长吧。。。

What should I do?

Through the past couple of days, I finally realised what it is that I don't like about my current job and how my current job differs from what I have in mind. But what's the use of this realisation when there ain't anything that I can do about it? I certainly don't have the capabilities to be where I would want to be - investment banking. But being where I am right now, I don't see how the experience could help me get to where I wanna be. For one, I feel that my supe ain't that well-versed in what I'm interested in learning, neither are the rest of my colleagues since that is essentially not what they are interested in - in-depth financial modelling.

The truth behind financial modelling all depends on the assumptions you make, and really, its difficult to justify these guesses made, but at the same time, its difficult for others to rebut you as well. These financial models built typically leads to a 'sale' presentation to external parties. Currently working on one such project now and I really like it despite the fact that it had caused me to lose sleep for a couple of nights and burnt my weekend working on it. Its a sad truth that projects of this kind are hard to come by. I really hope something comes out of this project for me so that I can continue working on it. But this will be at the expense of my time, at least for 2-3 mths. I don't really mind, if you ask me. Can only keep my fingers crossed.

Meanwhile, I feel that I ought to do something about this. This current job gives me more satisfaction than my previous job. But there're parts of this job that so irritates me and I just hate it! But I really don't know what I ought to do right now. Thinking about it, there're only 2 options for me now. 1 is to move overseas to do audit since I ain't doing what I like now as well, so why not move overseas to experience something different? 2. To stay on till its time to go take MBA. I really don't know... ...

X'mas tree brings back Memories

Went out with HX and DY last fri. JW couldn't make it in the end cos of food poisoning. When we got to Raffles City, HX and me exclaimed when we saw the huge Chrissy Tree!!! It still seemed like yesterday when we took a pic in front of that tree last year! We could still remember so vividly that we were hanging ard the area while waiting to meet up with another 2 galfrens. But the lighting was much prettier last year compared to tis year.

This past year seemed to have just flown by without us knowing what exactly happened. Last year tis time, the both of us were so sick with work and life (not that I ain't feeling this way any longer). Jus that its a little better now. Not as sick with work nor life, but still as lost as ever to what I want. The thought of moving overseas is still floating ard my head, but guess I still don't have the courage to put everything down and start afresh overseas. So, PS, I have yet to put in my applications. I know I should just write in and see what happens, but can't bring myself to since I can't convince myself 100% that I want to move overseas at this point in time and going back to what I used to do. Its overseas vs job experience that I want.. .. But not ruling out anything at this point in time yet. Suppose just waiting for the right time.. ..

Terribly terrrible service

I really am peeved by the service I got from the 2 restaurants I visited recently. Can I name the 2 restaurants? Won't name them but one's located in Cineleisure, the other located in Raffles City.

Let's talk about the one at Cine first. While waiting to be seated, we saw a cockroach crawling over the cakes =\ I got the attention of the guy behind the counter and wanted to tell him about the cockroach, instead of hearing me out, he told me to wait! Despite this, don't know why, we still went in. Had ice-cream and steered clear of the cakes. The place was certainly crowded and it took really long before someone came to take our orders. When the utensils were brought to us, they were dirty and was still stained with whatever wasn't washed off properly. Eeeks. They took an exceptionally long time to get us our plain water and never bothered to refill the glasses till very long after we requested for them to do so. While we were having the ice-cream, we saw another cockroach crawling around the seats!!! Hygiene = FAIL! When we were trying to get the bill, no matter how we tried to get the attention of the staff, it jus seemed like we were invisible people. When we were finally shown the bill, I just had to say my piece. I told the manager that should they want to charge service charge, they ought to do something about improving the service they provide. Could tell that he was really shocked to hear that and asked me to explain further. We never had the intention of asking for the service charge to be waived, but the manager took that off our bill on his own accord. That's the only saving grace of that place. I know I'll never set foot in that place again!

The one at Raffles City wasn't any better. We had told a couple of waiters that we wanted to order. All they did was asked us to wait. But they never came back to take our orders. Same thing happened when we asked for the bill. Super fed up. After we walked out of the place, I kept feeling that something wasn't right with the change I received. Hence, I checked and really, the change was short of 10 bucks. Now, I know I ought to have checked that before I kept the change and stuff, but.. We went back in and told the manager about it. One of the waiters then commented that we ought to have checked the change before we stepped out, as though tellin us that it was our own fault and they won't do anything about it. Don't have to state the obvious. It was our fault, but it wasn't as though they weren't at fault too. Shouldn't they have checked that the change they gave back to customers were correct too? Moreover, I'm not those cheapskate customers who would cheat the restaurant of the money by saying that the change I got was short when in actual fact it was correct! I can't expect them to think that way since they don't know me but they shouldn't doubt their customers like that right? Luckily, their manager apologised and said it was an error on their end because of the large no. of customers they had.

I know for sure I'm never stepping into either restaurants ever again.

Something should really be done about the service standards, not only in these 2 restuarants, but in Singapore on the whole.

Happy, yet Sad

Haven't post in a while... not sure wat to write actually... and also, been busy with work as well as customising my blog's template...

I'm someone who can't keep to 1 blog template for long, cos it becomes very stale and boring to me.. and I think it applies to my life also.. good or bad?

Happy yet sad.. do u all get this kinda of feeling at times too?? There're things that make you happy, but yet when looked at from another viewpoint, they make you sad.. =\ still can't really gather my thots to write anythin... ...